On ANTM the other day there was a girl name Marjorie, she was always nervous and had no self confidence whatsoever. It really made me think about how I felt about myself. I can't say that I really like myself. I don't think I'm pretty, my friends always say I am but I never believe them. I always pretend that I don't care what other people think about me but the truth is I care...a lot. It's actually what I think about most. There are these girls at my school who are so adorable and they have the cutest syles. I wish I could dress like they do. I just worry to much about what people think about me so I never can. It's really pathetic actually. I always tell myself "well Ivy today is the last time you're really going to care what other people think" but I know it's not true. I will always care. I'm just going to have to learn to care less. And worry about making myself happy and not worry about making other people happy because it's not my job. They can talk about me if they want. Sure it will hurt and I'll be really upset. But whatever I'll get over it eventually.