Oh I miss blogging, I never have enough time anymore though. I'm just going to have make time I suppose... Oh well, I actually talked about my feelings, or lackthereof yesterday. It was quite interesting. I never really realized that I was preventing myself from having feelings, but I am. If I don't share my feelings with anyone then no one can hurt them. I think it's a pretty good plan, but other people don't seem to think so. They seem to think "I'm going to miss out on importnant things in life" I really don't care though, I'm not going to get hurt again. It's not fun and I don't enjoy un-fun things. Tra la la tomorrow is thanksgiving. (: I suppose I should say what I'm thankful for, but I'm thankful for but there are so many things I'm thankkfun for I don't think I could even write them all down.

Friday the thirteenth, no wonder I'm having such a bad day.

Oh goodness I had the worst day at work ever. I cried for the first time in months. According to one of my managers I couldn't do anything right. I was talking to much and not working enough (even though I was working, you can even ask one of the girls I was working with) , I wasn't sizing the shirts right (I wasn't aware there was an incorrect way to do it) , I'm just an all around bead employee ( I have nothing to say about that because I don't think I'm bad but I really could be...) Oh well I guess I'm just going to have to get over it because she's not going to change. Apparently she's crazy and has to be in control all the time and I'm just going to have to be okay with that. I'm not sure how exactly but it'll happen.
I hate that she can make me cry though. It's not okay, if she can make me cry that means she can control me and I don't like that. I enjoy being a "free and independent young woman" hahaha. Yea right. What sixteen year old girl is free and independent? I really hate being a girl. It's so difficult. Being a boy can't be much better though...right? I wish I could have a chance to see what it's like to be a boy, maybe just for a weekend. Something more then a day because I'm sure you can't get the full male experience in one day. I'm sure I'd still be a shy little bitch though....

Lunch with Sophia today. Hopefully I can make her feel a smidge better.
Then I have to go to work. Which will suck, oh well.

Oh my goodness what a boring week I've had. I had to work Friday night and Saturday morning. That wasn't so bad. Then I spent Halloween with my best friend and her newest boy toy. Sunday I was busy doing two different projects and a bunch of other homework so I didn't go to church or youth group. I was also supposed to work but a sweet girl at work said she would take my hours for me so I could do my projects. But then since I didn't got to church or youth group I got grounded...Cool right? Oh well. Monday was super boring. Nothing cool ever happens on Mondays though so I was expecting much. The same goes for Tuesday and then today. Tomorrow is a half day though, and then I don't have school on Friday, thank goodness. (: I'm so sick of school. It's all quite boring, except for anatomy. That class is just difficult. Oh well that just means I have to try harder. (: