So right now I can't decide if my life is fantastic or terrible. I guess it just changes everyday. Somedays I'm as happy as can be but it seems like these days are usually when I'm with my friends. I think I'm just scared of being alone. I know this doesn't amke sense because I spend most of my life alone in my room watching some tv show. But I hate it, I think about it while I'm up there and can't figure out why I spend so much time alone. I really don't know. I guess because when I'm alone I can really think about thigs, but I really don't like thinking. I learn things about myself, things I don't like. Maybe I should just stop thinking, if I did that then maybe I wouldn't have these long boring posts, I could talk about how cool I was, or how much fun I had doing something completely pointless that day... Oh well. I think I'm pretty cool anyway. Sometimes.